The next two weeks are going to be extremely stressful for me. I have Thanksgiving, followed by the American Society for Hematology meeting. I am really stressed about my project theses days. I get mixed messages from my adviser. One minute he loves the work, the next he is calling the data soft and says we need to do more work. It is very confusing for me, because I get told to "work on the paper" one minute, and to "do more work" the next. I am supposed to have a "team" to help me, but Dr. B has made that pretty much impossible. I have lived and breathed this data since March 2007.....he barely paid attention. Now, he is trying to change the direction and focus of the work every two days. He tells the other people in the group to do stuff with my samples, but does not tell me! Then, when the come to me, I have to try and figure out what he was thinking. I know that I am not a PhD yet, but I have sweated and lost sleep over this work. I hate the fact that someone who knows I have a good thing going is trying to take credit for my ideas and step away with my work. I can sort of understand my old lab partner Mary Lynn now.
The other stressful part is the holidays. I hate having to walk on eggshells around certain people. They do not deserve it, but I am not "in the family" per se...so I have to keep my mouth shut. NOT a strong point of mine. One thing I am looking forward to is Thanksgiving at my house. It will be nice to spend a day with my relatives that doesn't involve burials. We all still miss Dad terribly, but we are getting used to the fact that he is gone...
Well, wish me luck. I doubt I will update much before my birthday.